so, i thought it was about time that i add to this blog business. :)
i feel like going to Uganda is all about waiting right now: waiting for God to provide the money, waiting to hear from our contacts about final plans, and waiting for that final day to come (only 47 more to go!). I sure wish i was a patient person....
it also seems like each time i get to what feels like the end of my faith, God grants me one more day of trust in Him that he truly is going to provide and that he is big enough to handle a few thousand dollars and a trip over the ocean.
I was just having coffee with a friend earlier today and she asked how Uganda was going. After spouting off at the mouth for probably 10 minutes straight, i got to the part in the story where i talked about some of the hard times we've already come through. I said something about how when we haven't heard from our contacts or when the money isn't coming like i thought it would, i begin to doubt that i was ever called in the first place. Are we really called to be "salt and light" in Uganda? Did i miss-hear God's voice in my heart? Before i even let that thought sink in, my dear coffee-date chimes in and says, "Caitlin, there is no doubt you're called. You're supposed to go to Uganda." And while it seems really simple, she said it with the look on her face that said what i'm sure Jesus would have said: "stop doubting and believe!" What makes it so amazing is that she's only heard me talk about Uganda once and that was when we spoke at an on campus ministry event. She knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that we ARE called to be there - i suppose i just needed a little reminder :)
God is always sending those kind of things into our hearts. Just last week we were all at Kathy's house having a bonding weekend and getting ready to speak at her church on Sunday. we were (or at least i was) pretty down about not hearing from out contacts, and we sat in the store where Kathy works and took donations all day and had very little luck. But, what kept me going was that we heard from BOTH of our contacts in the same day - i talked to Touch the World:Uganda on the phone and with NorthernLights via email. What are the odds of that!? What makes it even more wonderful is that it's happened twice! on two different occasions when i've been ready to give up and back out, God says "no, Go!" and puts us in touch with both our contacts in one moment. how amazing!
God is soo good! maybe Uganda is about waiting...waiting to see God move as we stand in faith!
4 comments:
i write too much...sorry.
Every time I hear you guys talk about Uganda, I get chills and from some where down deep in me I know that Uganda is where your family lives and God wants you guys to go there.
Don't apologize, silly. :o)
I cherish every part of your heart that you choose to share. And i thought your post was wonderful.
Caitlin, seriously don't apologize. This post was awesome. The story of overcoming fear, and becoming triumphant over doubt can never get old. Remember that it is the blood of the lamb AND the word of our testimony that overcomes Satan in Revelations. Therefore this post gains more value in the telling. Keep it up!
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